October 2010
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Yay me!
When I don’t feel like I’m accomplishing enough (being enough, doing enough) I have to take inventory. So here’s to my accomplishments and patting myself on the back.
1. Making necklaces and found an outlet to possibly sell them!
2. Knitting again.
3. Walking regularly.
4. Volunteering in new ways.
5. Being calmer with the boys.
6. Being more vulnerable with Mr. Dashingly...
My chest is clenched
I’m sitting here waiting for your call. The one I’ve been waiting for for 3 weeks now? I can’t keep track of this eternity anymore. Each time the call comes it’s postponed. A few more days, until next week. When the sun refuses to shine. When hell has frozen over.
Meanwhile you sit in a room with her and them and wait for someone else to decide what is fair for everyone....
September 2010
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Dog Days of Summer
We spent the day at Sunflower Farm yesterday. If you live anywhere near Denver/Boulder and have children, you must take them there. Soon. What an amazing place. I spent some time editing photos last night from our day. I didn’t take too many because we were too busy having F-U-N, but I managed to capture a few. Then I realized Picasa has joined forces with Picnik and I lost a couple of hours...
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Reading Again
One of my favorite pastimes fell a bit by the wayside over the course of the last year and a half. I had to drop out of my book club because I couldn’t manage to read things I didn’t have a burning desire to read or that I didn’t have to read to get through the year. I managed to finish The Elegance of the Hedgehog which was phenomenal although not an easy read by any means.
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750 Words
Wow. I was reading Art Slam today and Lucrecer wrote about 750 Words. I went and checked it out and immediately logged in and started writing. Holy wow. I finished in 19 minutes with 800 words and went straight to check out the analytics. Just wow.
What an amazing tool to journal with. Here are some of my stats:
Rating: G (No cussing from me this morning apparently)
Feeling mostly: Upset
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Five Lists of Five
Things I Never Thought I Would Know So Much About
1. Permanent Protection Orders
2. Organic produce
3. Divorce psychology
4. Pokemon
5. Mail merges
Things I’ve Recently Started Doing and Enjoying
1. Lindy Hop
2. Rollerblading
3. Reading on my iPhone
4. Riding my bike
5. Coaching running
Things I Love to Eat
1. Sushi
2. Curries
3. Dark chocolate with chilis
4. BBQ ribs
5....
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Taking the time
I spent nearly two hours on the phone this morning with one of my favorite people in the whole wide universe and beyond. Her official title is Aunt but in my mind she is interchangeable with Soul Sister, Confidante, Advisor, Shaman, Therapist, Friend. We speak nearly everyday. Today when I called she was crying. Great big sobs crying.
I have spoken to a number of people to whom I give credit or...
August 2010
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1 Degree of Separation
There is a space in the cupboard where there used to be a chocolate bar. An organic bar of dark chocolate loaded with chili peppers. I have developed a taste for these chocolate bars. The kind of taste where the chocolate doesn’t last for too long in the space in the cupboard. This really says nothing about my personality, for a super-size Kitkat would be as equally short-lived in my house....
July 2010
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Not sure what this chat feature is all about...
Self: Today you must apply yourself to finding a job.
Wimpy Self: (said in whiny tone) But it always makes me so depressed...
Self: Just look on Andrew Hudson's site and apply for the one that most interests you.
Wimpy Self: But they won't hire me and then I'll get REALLY depressed...
Self: How about you ask current contract employer to bring you on full time & complain about parts of the job you don't like!
Wimpy Self: BRILLIANT!
(Note: it worked. I got a job. And I won't have to do the things I don't want to anymore.)
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June 2010
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May 2010
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Who Am I? - The Beginning
I have spent all of my life trying to answer that question.
I was born in 1970 in a small town in Nebraska that I have never visited after leaving as an infant. My mom was 19, soon to be 20, when I was born. My father had just turned 21. I was conceived sometime in the early spring in a small town in Eastern Colorado. My parents both went to high school there and were attending the local junior...
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Retrospective
One year ago today I was in the middle of the deepest depression I had ever been in. I had been presented with a choice: (1) to abandon the life I was hanging onto by a thread or (2) snip the thread, plunge over the cliff and hope for the best. When the fog of the depression cleared for a brief moment, I chose door number 2. My life will never be the same.
In the past year I have done a host...